All my life I've fought discipline. As my mom was very busy taking care of me and my very sick dad most of my childhood, I was left to my own devices (mostly books) so I really wasn't forced to do anything, in general.

I tend to be very undisciplined and while it's not hurt me in life, I think I might have reached certain goals earlier than I did. Now, at age 45, I am learning the concept of "healthy discipline".

One of the things I've chosen to do as part of the healthy discipline has been twice daily showers. The philosophy behind this particular discipline is that as we go through our day, we pull in energies and vibrations of other people, places and situations. By showering in the evening, we wash that off us and purify our body for sleep. And believe it or not, the work you do in the dream state also accumulates various energies that need to be washed away to prepare for your day. When my teacher mentioned this process, I asked what changes come about by doing it. She responded (enigmatically) "Well, you try it and tell me!". Not the answer I wanted but it did pique my interest. It took me about three days to start a routine that included the twice daily bathings but after a week or so, I noticed that I didn't feel draggy every day. I didn't wake up with a "heavyosity" around me that had been following me and which I attributed to depression. That was very interesting to notice and it was a gradual awakening sort of like "hey! I feel pretty good every day! Hmmmm."

And that feeling has helped reinforce the benefit of this discipline. I've been doing it for about three weeks now and it's especially served me well while taking care of my mom who is in the hospital for surgery. After a full day of ministering to her needs, it feels good to just wash all that off and go to sleep free of yucky energy.

Healthy discipline - I think I rather like this concept!

Lead us, O Lord,
from darkness to Light,
from the unreal to the Real,
from death to immortality,
from chaos to Beauty,
from the individual to the Universal,
from the many cycles to the One Life,
from outer manifestation to the Sacred Space.
Amen.


This prayer is taken from the Sancta Sophia Online site. Sancta Sophia is a mystery school teaching Esoteric Christianity. Esoteric means this:

ESOTERIC: The Greek root eso means “within.” That which is hidden, unseen, secret, inner, or out-of-sight—the meaning behind the meaning. Obscure but profound to those prepared to receive. In the New Testament, Jesus spoke of mysteries reserved for disciples which he did not offer the public. His public teachings, the parables, while commonly understood, also may contain other, deeper message

In November, I will be traveling with my teacher and mentor Regina to the Sancta Sophia seminary in Oklahoma to get a feel for the seminary and what it offers. Right now I am considering getting a certification in Spiritual Mentoring so that I can better serve those who are drawn to me. Regina is a riot and I'm sure the drive there alone (22 hours! aack!) will be an adventure much less a week at the seminary itself.

The more I read about and begin to understand Esoteric Christianity, the more it makes sense to me. Something has to truly resonate with me for it to stay in my little brain and this definitely does in a way other things (Wicca, for example) have not. Mystery Schools don't go out and seek others. If you find them and they speak to you, then you will investigate that. (That may be the way of all things in this world, eh?) So, I shall follow this path and see where it leads.

Have a lovely Monday!